No one else has written about this before either. Again I’m the first to tackle this dynamic in my blog. I want to talk about the truth about recovery.
Not everyone feels like they’ve recovered. This is the distinction. It’s an individual accounting of what your life is like.
In the 1990s I lived at home while I worked at a terrible insurance office job I was ill-suited to do. On paper it might have looked like I recovered because I had a j-o-b.
Only I told my mother: “I want a life.” She responded: “You have a life.”
Little did I know or could articulate then how my time on earth would be forever altered by moving to Brooklyn and becoming a mental health advocate.
It must have been in my subconscious that I understood there was more I was being called to do. Only trapped in that cubicle hell I couldn’t clearly see where the road ahead would take me.
This is partly why I think it’s a mistake to measure a person’s status solely by external markers of success like a house and car and job.
In the 1990s I hadn’t “recovered” in a way that was soul-enriching, life-affirming, and mood-elevating.
This begs for all of us the question: “What is recovery?”
Recovery should be a self-defined lifestyle. You should be the one who’s able to determine the direction of your life.
The question for each of us to ask is: “What kind of recovery do I want to have?” AND “What kind of life do I want to have?”
In the next blog entry I will talk about shifting the needle to the left on the VU meter of life–the theme of Left of the Dial. This is how I was able to live the kind of life I wanted to have.
I will talk about how to take action in the direction of your dreams.
For there are a myriad ways to recover–as multitudinous as there are people living in recovery.